i know we were just friends, but you really meant the world to me until you left me waiting. waiting for you to talk to me after that time we said, but i didn’t think would be, our last good byes. i told you how i missed you and that i wanted to see you more and you just stood there. looking at me with those brown, sparkling eyes of yours, sighing. sighing as if someone had just told you, you had one day left to live. you were hopeless and pathetic. not knowing how to respond to that, i just brushed it off my shoulders and left you. my last words being “see you soon, text me”. hoping i would see you soon, i didn’t. it was if you had left me to live on my own. to figure out what our friendship had come to on my own, without your help. you left me waiting, hoping, and wishing you would text me. like i asked you to that time i said see you soon. but when i ran out the door that day, i didn’t realize that “see you soon”, meant “our friendship is over”. because if i would have known that, i would have never left. i would have stood there until i had gotten a response, until i knew your thought when you did that long sigh. i dont know if i did anything wrong to deserve this silent treatment, but i loved you as a friend with my whole heart and i will never lose that love i have for you. i guess now this means that things are rocky in our relationship? not even that. never mind that, they are non- existent. they are the numbing pain i feel every time someone mentions your name or when i see your pictures pop up on my newsfeed. they remind me that i should have never left, i should have never gone, and i should have trusted my head over my heart that day. because our friendship has been just rocky from the get go. not moving forward, nor back. just motionless. paralyzed. and unspoken of.
